Dear Hannah,
You have so much determination & passion, & no idea what to do with it. I know you feel like youâll never find your way, but you will. Everything will change in a second & it will be so beautiful. Youâll figure out your dreams along the way. Youâll find a reason to wake up & smile every day. Youâll find something you love. Youâll recognize your worth. You are worth existing.
I gotta spoil it for you, you will go to college, & you will graduate! (Okay hopefully, Iâm still a little way away. Weâre being positive here though!) Itâs going to be the hardest thing you ever do, but just know it will be worth it. Keep focused & you will succeed. Youâll hit some major bumps along the line but just keep going. Itâs going to feel like the world is one its toes watching you, so donât disappoint.
Everyone may have thought it was weird that you picked to be homeschooled for most of high school, but I donât regret a thing. You explored so much of your creativity. You grew in the way you needed most. Be happy you played guitar as much as you have, you wonât have the time in college. & donât worry, you wonât feel so weird around people. I know being an introvert was always hard for you but youâll learn & understand it better soon. You arenât weird for not having many friends. Itâs what you need & thatâs what matters most.
As an artist, your identity is always going to be important to you. Donât be afraid to experiment (you will, it wonât be that bad) it will help you find what you like.
Most importantly, youâll learn to love yourself along the way. Being a perfectionist always made this so difficult. Not every day is easy, especially when you arenât doing as much as you know youâre capable of, but you will have more good days than bad days. Youâll learn not care about what people think of you. You wonât feel the stares on the street. Just know everything will turn out better than you couldâve ever imagined.
Shine on. Iâll see you soon.